griEVE is based on a dream I had as a child. My mother had died the year before and I had a dream that she wasn’t dead, she was in a mental hospital. When I awoke, I was so confused as to what was the truth. I thought it would make an interesting novel to explore a story about a girl who suffers this confusion, for various reasons, and then chooses to believe the less-painful version of events.
The rest of griEVE is fiction, but I did draw heavily on places that I had grown up in. I grew up in Fairfield, which I called Fairlane in the novel. My house was a deceased estate when we bought it and it did come with an old Salonela upright gramophone and about three hundred gramophone records. I have the gramophone now, and the records. It still works! The gramophone record that Eve plays is one that I chose from the collection – ‘Why?’ by Nat King Cole. I did get copyright permission from the daughter of the songwriter to use the lyrics.
Like Eve’s, my childhood house was located near a paddock that contained sewage treatment pools. My brother used to ride his mini bike around the paddock, but I was too scared to ride.
My Primary School was called ‘Our Lady of the Rosary’, but in the book I changed the name to ‘Our Lady of Peace’. Our Lady Peace is the name of a Canadian rock band that I fell in love with on my year of teacher exchange in Vancouver.
The dairy farm that Eve moves to at Kurrabrook is based on the dairy farm my family moved to at Parkville, near Scone in the Hunter Valley of New South Wales.
The poem on pg 210 by Luke Friskers, written in Eve’s English class on her first day at Kurrabrook High, was actually a poem I wrote in Year Seven. I didn’t have it written down, but for some reason I can still recite that poem from memory. For obvious reason, I did not become a poet!
All the names of my main characters, from Losing It and griEVE, are names I liked and considered naming my children after one day – Gabbie, Zoe, Zak, Eve, Summer, Thomasina, Sebastian. During the editing process of griEVE I was pregnant with my first (and only) child. If a girl, my child was going to be called Summer Eve. I reconsidered when I realised that I would be naming her after two very troubled young girls. We chose Isla Josephine instead.